I was given an opportunity to get this experience.

"Are you applying to teach in the evening session?"one of my friend asked when i attend the first meeting.

"Welcome to our group!" other added.

'Hey..what going on?' I blurred.

Then, i got my timetable for 2013. Hoho..it's quite surprising.

Nobody told me that i will teach level 1 pupils. Year 1 for English subject and Year 3 for Art and Science. Congratulation! Hoho...my heart beats faster. I'm okay to teach level 1 pupil but NOT OK to teach English for Year 1. I'm not confident even though that subject is my minor subject. During my practical time, i never had any experienced in handling the small kid. I feel comfortable to give instruction to level 2 pupils compared the small kid. I had no enough knowledge about KSSR, PBS, never attend any courses about it, what is lesson study, and there is a native speaker in my school that all the English teachers in the evening session need to face him.Ooo...

I really want to think positive.

'I was given an opportunity to get this experience.'

In some aspect, i'll say yes..it was a burden. I want to serve my pupils well. But i'm soO lacking in many aspect to be an English teacher.

Now, i need to work harder. People say,

'everything at your fingertips.'

So, i cannot give any excuses to say,

'I cannot teach English subject.'
'I cannot say I am bad in Grammar even though in reality I hate grammar.'
'I am lacking in language skills but i need to show off that i'm good.'


I need supporter to motivate me. I must throw all the shyness if i want to learn. I must open my mouth widely to ask the experience teachers if i have any problem. I pray I can open my mind to accept  any advice and guidance from all the teacher. I try to talk to myself,

'It's okay to be humble to learn something. Not because I am too bad but I want to be a better person.  I want to be a good teacher.'

Hope you all can pray for me.

*Thank you for reading this post. Forgive me for all the grammar mistake. Haha...a lot, right? Sorry. I'm still learning.